Hmmm so im sitting here thinking....i think as every day goes by its a day closer to seeing Daddy. Like any other slave i can't wait. Its been a while and I really need my Daddy. But that's not what this post is about. Its about going through out the days but with nothing to do. My inner goddess is telling me "Why don't you ask Daddy for task to do everyday"; and i remember thinking about that months and months ago. It would give me something to do while my waits continue. Try it out as a test run.
Oh did I mention i may be getting canned next week...maybe i write something about my thoughts and feelings on it before it actually happens.
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Anxious
Last night was there was an abundance of emotions going on for me. Daddy is making plans on having a sub play with us here and there starting next month, and I'm a bit excited because its something new, but nervous because i hope i can do everything asked of me.
Daddy told me some things to expect; what i should call Him and her, what to do when i get there...the list goes on. I don't know why but i freaked out a bit. I started to feel a wall come up; a wall that builds when i feel to exposed and vulnerable. It protects me by shutting down all emotions and feelings. I become disconnected from everything and everyone, including Daddy. He's excited about the whole thing and the other sub is excited too, but why am i not excited i thought to myself.
As always Daddy knows how to fix it. He wanted me to make me cum. I have a plug in my ass that i wear 24/7. Daddy wanted me to pull it in and out of me. Mmmm it felt so good. Then i had to alternate fucking my ass and my pussy with it. My mood is starting to mellow out. Daddy let me cum twice and that did it.
"Do you feel better"
"Yes"
"Good, thats what I wanted to hear"
Still i felt exposed but that wall was coming down. What took me by surprise was when Daddy said i should look at it as Him showing me off because He's proud of me. I still getting caught up with my words when thinking of this because Daddy has never showed that i do make Him feel proud enough to show me....if that makes any sense lol.
I woke up this morning and my inner goddess had a big smile on her face. Is it safe to say I'm looking forward to play time with the three of us....just a little more than i thought.
Song Selection: God and Monsters by Lana del Rey
Daddy told me some things to expect; what i should call Him and her, what to do when i get there...the list goes on. I don't know why but i freaked out a bit. I started to feel a wall come up; a wall that builds when i feel to exposed and vulnerable. It protects me by shutting down all emotions and feelings. I become disconnected from everything and everyone, including Daddy. He's excited about the whole thing and the other sub is excited too, but why am i not excited i thought to myself.
As always Daddy knows how to fix it. He wanted me to make me cum. I have a plug in my ass that i wear 24/7. Daddy wanted me to pull it in and out of me. Mmmm it felt so good. Then i had to alternate fucking my ass and my pussy with it. My mood is starting to mellow out. Daddy let me cum twice and that did it.
"Do you feel better"
"Yes"
"Good, thats what I wanted to hear"
Still i felt exposed but that wall was coming down. What took me by surprise was when Daddy said i should look at it as Him showing me off because He's proud of me. I still getting caught up with my words when thinking of this because Daddy has never showed that i do make Him feel proud enough to show me....if that makes any sense lol.
I woke up this morning and my inner goddess had a big smile on her face. Is it safe to say I'm looking forward to play time with the three of us....just a little more than i thought.
Song Selection: God and Monsters by Lana del Rey
Thursday, January 02, 2014
The New Year
So the new year is here and all I can say is...well....I don't know what to say. I want this year to be better than the last. A better me, better communication and a stronger relationship with Daddy. More days with Daddy. I know I've had my fair share of ups and down and I haven't been the easiest slave, but I think I have grown up a bit. Nonetheless there is always room for improvement. And what is a new year without trying to change your flaws.
Two things I think I need to improve on:
My Insecurities
Daddy chose me as His slave, that is more than enough reason to put a stop to it. I get that part of Him that few people see, and I don't want to be the one that mess that up.
My Fears
Fear of meeting Daddy's expectations. I use to be afraid of everything including Daddy, but once I got comfortable and found my place I feel like I've jumped off a cliff head first without a parachute.
This could really be my year and I'm determined to make the best of it.
There's so much more I want to say, but my mind can't seem to put anything in order at the moment lol. Until next time...xoxo
-R.
Song Selection: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
Two things I think I need to improve on:
My Insecurities
Daddy chose me as His slave, that is more than enough reason to put a stop to it. I get that part of Him that few people see, and I don't want to be the one that mess that up.
My Fears
Fear of meeting Daddy's expectations. I use to be afraid of everything including Daddy, but once I got comfortable and found my place I feel like I've jumped off a cliff head first without a parachute.
This could really be my year and I'm determined to make the best of it.
There's so much more I want to say, but my mind can't seem to put anything in order at the moment lol. Until next time...xoxo
-R.
Song Selection: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
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