Why so calm?

Its been some time since I last seen my Master. Normally when there's some distance between us i get antsy...REAL antsy. At the moment however, im calm. His little piggy is calm. Doing things Master wants her too...Stretching all of her holes for Him. I do have that needy feel but doing what Master wants lessens it. That and thinking of Him 24/7. As Master has told me countless times there is nothing to get all excited about. And He's right....He's always right..

Mind Fuckery

Mind Fuckery is one hell of a thing. It can be exciting  or it can very well be terrible. In my case i guess it is not so terrible..

These past couple of days i have been a very calm person; too calm in my opinion. But why is that? Well i have a mind that can lead me to a tunnel of "things that are only in your imagination," and are very much different from what my Master thinks so i try to shut all mental communications down. 

I'll give an example, Master and i haven't had sex in six months.. Yes this is a sexual relationship but sometimes we don't get around to it, i don't see him as often and the mere fact that living arrangements are not 24/7.....not having sex in my mind has made me feel less sexy. i know i'm sexy and i know my Master finds me sexy but i don't feel it. That sounds really jumbled. How can one know they are one thing but they feel the opposite way about it. 

 I can hear some of you sighing sand pushing out the OMGs.