Broken

It's hard going months without Him... yes we talk here and there, but it's not the same....and the further apart it is the the more I make myself suffer.... it's hard to communicate when you feel you're the only one doing it. There are never direct answers and you always have to fill in the blanks yourself because you're never going to get them. You cry because you feel you aren't worth it...you're not worthy of Him and you'll never be...i always feel like that in all of my relationships....maybe I'll never be worth it to anyone...I always feel alone even with you you're still distant....i feel cut into pieces....what do you want from me? What do you want from us...qquestions tthat'll never get answered. All I want is to for you to love me....but it's bad because I don't even love myself...I want that closeness we once had again.... I wish you could feel the pain I feel. ..words can't describe it......bUT at the end of the day...I know I'm forever broken and not worthy...