Trying to lactate

It started with Master wanting me to lactate, which I was over joyed for because I've always wanted to do it but never told Him abut it. He said I needed to get my hands on domperidone and that I needed to massage my boobs a certain number of times and for how long. I think it's been a month, month and a half and we really haven't gotten anywhere. There was times when my breast were nice and full and I was producing small amounts of milk, but I'm not now. There is completely nothing coming out. It's making my emotions go up and down. Mostly down. I want to do nothing more than produce milk for Master. That's my main focus. That is what keeps me in this race.

But this whole process brings new sensations. I feel that my nipples are being split open with a blade. Sometimes is just feel so much pressure. At night its different. MY NIPPLES ARE ON FIRE!! I toss and turn because of it. I cant even sleep on my stomach. When i do the sensation gets super intense. At times i have to put ice packs on them to keep it together.  When i shower now its like my nipples are being open. This stuff is all new to me. Not to forget the cramping i get. Its intense but its tolerable at times.

I know i have to be patient, but i am not a patient person. When i cant produce results i feel useless like i have failed. I need to stop thinking like that but when you're the only person that trying to make it work you have doubts in yourself. The pressure is all on me. And i not putting the blame on Him, Its not much He can do anyway. I'm the one with the tits i'm the one everything falls on. I just need to stay calm, not stress out and be positive. Slow and steady wins the race right. Its a slow bumpy ride. And i don't want to over load myself with pills and herbs and all the extra stuff that you can take to get some results. I'm going to hit the restart soon. Ill have to draw out a plan get it approved by Master and see what happens from there. If nothing happens then we'll just go to the drawing board and figure out other possibilities. I wont be my own defeat. Plus its something i really want so i refuse to be the cause to stop it. I have even changed the times i take my pills and how often i massage my breast. hopefully that will have some type of effect on it.

 Until then happy milking :)